” The long time coming ” has arrived, and it’s shaken me to the core. I’ve never felt so alone, hurt, conflicted, scared, and numb as I do right now.
The truth is what’s best for me; but, the truth is causing me the most pain, right now, though. I don’t know what to do with any of this.
A single decision changed everything. I fought so hard to hold on. That was the problem the entire time, my giving and expecting little. It’s exactly how I ended up, empty handed. When I drained myself of all I had, and I felt the emptiness no one in a relationship should feel, what’s left to do?
He doesn’t remember me. I am not loved by him. I’m not valued as equally as his family. I can’t handle that.
The tides are changing again. It’s truly time I put myself first, and for my girls. I’ll never let another relationship feel so one sided again. I’m worth so much more.
Please keep in contact with me. I’m going to need the support.
When love hurts, … and the truth is right in your face… You question where the fuck did it come from, and more importantly, how did you miss it? Surely there were signs… or maybe this IS the first “red flag”. It’s brilliant vibrant red… dripping blood from the would he tore wide open… Ass doesn’t even see it.
When you instinctively set your standard, when their reaction is some twisted illusion of what they feel is a “ bigger issue “, making it seem youre the problem… making it seem as if your behavior is the reason why they hurt you… as if you deserve it…
When they tell you to go, they best thing you can do is go. When they tell you this reason or have that reason why they changed their mind to see you… when you feel your stand on a matter was completely disregarded… and you feel his visits are conditioned to his “ term and conditions”…
I know my truths. I know my loyalty to my truth is stronger than my love to a man that has a reason on standby to not come see me…. having gone through this past month as we have…
You give your fuckin silence!!
That’s your power.
You control your life, your silence frees you from all and any of their influence.