My Mental Health Journey #21: Transitioning to Transforming

Who am I? …. Have you ever asked yourself ? I’m curious to know how you responded. What did you think at the time? I wonder if, like me, you weren’t sure? Not entirely anyway.

In 2009, I started my discovery of who I am. I researched my health. I went to the doctor with the information and plan of action. I studied my personality test results. I researched about Highly Sensitive People. I wanted to believe I knew who I was. I wanted to believe I do know who I am.

That became me, what felt normal. I felt like I had a sense of self.. that I had worked through the crises and trauma of my childhood; and, I made it!

Roughly two months ago, something within me changed. I realized both of my two daughters were going to be school… 7 hours a day, 5 days a week… and my baby at her dad’s on the weekends.

That would follow 8.5 years of having AT LEAST one little child at home. It’s following, 24/7/365 days of attending to my kids. Picking up after them, bathing them, changing and dressing them, rocking and nursing, feeding and nurturing them. I literally made them my life.

Motherhood became “what I was good at”!

Before this chapter, I excelled in school.. I knew I was good at getting A’s! I enjoyed school. It seemed so much more simple than when I started in 2003. The difficult part of life was fairly over. I believed I could handle anything.

Ironically, though, at the same time, I wasn’t good at being “married”! Nope! I’ve been married twice and both were unhealthy codependency (not in a form of drugs!).

Was I good at being a friend? Hmmm. I was apart of a church. I was attending a fellowship group. I made attempts to create friendships in school. Everywhere I was, in every social settling, I wasn’t comfortable. I felt “literally felt the uncomfortable and awkward energy” in every one. That was without saying, members of the church would all congregate for some special reason or no reason.. and I would just so happen to find out, not be invited, whatever.

In a place that is suppose to be filled with a pure love, it was filled with favorites.. whispers.. facades of religion Jesus followers.. who only accepted a version of you.. or not at all.. because you are who you are…

When I came out as Bisexual, in 2009, I FINALLY felt comfortable in my own skin. I felt like I just threw opened the castle gates, for once in a long time. Anna from Frozen, best describes the freedom and joy in that moment.. when truth feels like it’s been achieved.

A divorce followed. A horrible broken heart followed that. Loss by the masses kept happening. Because I “chose the path” to sin? No! Because Truth should be hidden? No!

Because the world is comfortably complacent. In many world’s “Why fix what isn’t broken?”

So this leads me back to present time, kids start school.. And I FREAK OUT!!

Because I don’t know what else I’m good at! I have bad spells of anxiety because nights when my girls arent here, it’s literally too quiet sometimes. It’s so difficult to handle sometimes. I don’t know how to be or what to do with myself aside from mothering!

I suddenly feel all out of control.. Again! I feel uncomfortable and insecure. I feel such little confidence in my mental scenarios.

It’s a phase of transformation. It’s making me uncomfortable and doubtful.

I’ll be going through this for some time, I’m afraid. If anyone has any words of encouragement, I’d really appreciate it 💓

Thanks for listening!

Nova Namastè

Labour of Love

This county was literally built from the blood sweat and tears of hard-working, talented, and honorable human beings.

We often say, “Rome wasn’t built in a day.” We understand that to mean, it’ll take time to accomplish a grand task. Workers, back then, only knew this life.. day in and day out.. before sunrise until after sunset. They sawed, hammered, dug, carried, loaded and unloaded, relocated, built, filled and dumped, walked, welded, created.. There was no sense of defeat among the people. There was no “rush” to get it done.

They took pride in their accomplishments. They naturally accepted the tiresome jobs and didn’t complain.

Growing up, I was taught “Haste makes waste.” If your body and mind are in a state of rush.. It’ll fog your focus.. thus resulting in mistakes that require more time to correct. Amazingly, these workers understood that, too. The physical work and dirty jobs were their life. They didn’t dread going. They didn’t try any shortcuts to save “resources” at the risk of structure failure.

I admire these individuals. I admire their sense of dedication, work ethic, and humbled nature. Whether in their professional or personal lives, the labour of love was unmistakably evident.

Happy Labour Day America ❤️🤍💙🇺🇸

Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness

Nova Namastè

Here’s another small labour of love that made a huge difference 💓

Saturday 6-Word-Story-Prompt: Silence

Shweta hosts the Saturday, 6-Word-Story- Prompt:D Check out all the details for this and previous weeks here!

Demonstrate your character; silence the doubt.

Love & Light:

Nova Namastè

Somethin Bout Mirrors 🪞

Morning Morning Everyone! For many of us, it’s Friday! We made it 100% through every win and struggle this week. I’m completely proud of you!

Those of you who live many many miles from the US, how has your weekend treated you thus far? Have you stopped your mind and body to enjoy the current moment?

Today, to each of you, I’m sending my most sincere wishes for a wonderful day full of amazing moments.

Today’s theme is mirrors. Shortly after discovering these two images, my mind continued down the road of mirrors. What they represent. What they say. How they are used. I’m excited to share my findings with you.

For now, I’d like to leave you with this cup of positivity!

As always remember to Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness 🍃🙏🏼


Nova Namastè

10 Back in Classroom Challenges for Families

I loved having my kids home with me. I loved that we could wear jammies, or be the no pants fam anytime we wanted. I loved the extra time together and fun extra adventures we were able to take, because of remote learning.

Today marks the 9th day of the 21-22 school year. My kids’ attend a K-8 location of CMSD. My 2nd grade kid began the strange re-familiarizing of classroom learning, last Monday. My Kindergartener attended two half days and one full day last week.

I’m certain, as much as we parents LOVE our children, we were all excited to see them go back into the classroom. Honestly, I was! Any other parent want to admit that?

As we have worked through the first few days, and have expected challenge, here’s 10 BACK INTO THE CLASSROOM CHALLENGES many families are possibly facing.

1. Timeliness: All of a sudden, scholars are limited to a set block of time, to accomplish an activity. There’s pressure in that scenario. It’s drastically different from completing assignment by Friday. Remote learning provided much more leniency because there was no in person accountability.

2. Functionality: Parents have to be up. Their responsibility is to assure timeliness of their students’ arrival: safely, homework completed, clean, clothed, and rested. Likewise, students have to be more focused and awake to function as needed in classes.

3. Germs: Yep, back to the germ mansion of epic proportions. Though every class requires masks, and all the preventative materials, there’s always a chance a friend will share more than welcomed.

4. Familiarity: Our babies, coming in as 1st graders or Kindergarten, are brand new to this school thing. Their first year was spent in the most unconventional way possible. That lack of familiarity of the building, day schedule, operations of the building, everything makes this year extra challenging.

5. Mental Health: This is always something that holds challenges; however, Covid deaths creates a whole new level for kids. The schools must prepare resources to be accessible for those students in need. Mental Health for us parents is also on a rocky foundation. Loss sucks!! When it happens so quickly, in such a cold and foreign setting.. like a hospital room with no family..our mental health will need self care.

6. Stillness: This is a HUGE challenge with our kids returning to school! Many kids struggled with sitting properly on Zoom. They were at home, sometimes unsupervised in a room. Returning to school requires little bodies to be relatively still, most of the day. I’d struggle with this if I were in this situation.

7. Attention: This falls hand in hand with stillness. Because of time, structure, and academic milestones, students must focus in order to advance to the next grade level. This year, our kids can have a bit more difficulty because of the environment changes.

8. Uncertainty of Covid: Gosh, this is truly a nightmare for all of us. As soon as we feel there’s progress in this circus, the news sweeps us back many a mile. The number of new cases rise by the day, terrifying to think.. especially considering this “ non-mandatory vaccine.” Kids now have to worry about being isolated or bullied if they were not to feel well. They would and do face feelings of anxiety about whether or not the schools will shut down again and they won’t see friends.

9. Weather elements: Many parts of our lives are affected by the weather. It’s equally impactful for our kids. What to wear? Sunshine or lack of changing behavior. Keeping track of gloves, hats, exc. If the weather will bring on colds.


10. All Individual Challenges of the Student: Even in a typical school year, no two students are exactly alike. That said, staff and parents must mold the specific details of each student into a safe and positive learning environment. Some kids are triggered by windows. Some kids cannot eat peanuts. Some might feel anxiety about not being able to finish a drawing. The sheer individuality of every child creates a need to adjust so he/she is in the best position to learn and grow.

The number one aspect that influences a child’s life is consistency. This resuming in-class education is necessary, but must be handled with patience, delicateness, and grace. The big emotions all of us are feeling are likely more scary for our babies. I asked that if you are not a teacher or a parent to please pray for a smooth transition all year. If you are a teacher and/or a parent please know that you have my full support! You got this!

Until next time,

Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness

Nova Namastè

235-247th Day of 365 Thanks Giving

In Honor of our 13 Fallen Soldiers !

12 Marines : 1 Army

  1. Sgt. Johanny Rosario Pichardo, 25
  2. Sgt. Nicole L. Gee, 23
  3. Staff Sgt. Darin T. Hoover, 31
  4. Cpl. Hunter Lopez, 22
  5. Cpl. Daegan W. Page, 23
  6. Cpl. Humberto A. Sanchez, 22
  7. Lance Cpl. David L. Espinoza, 20
  8. Lance Cpl. Jared M. Schmitz, 20
  9. Lance Cpl. Rylee J. McCollum, 20
  10. Lance Cpl. Dylan R. Merola, 20
  11. Lance Cpl. Kareem M. Nikoui, 20
  12. Navy Corpsman Maxton W. Soviak, 22
  13. Staff Sgt. Ryan C. Knauss, 23

May they, forever, rest in peace of our love and gratitude.

Weekend Writing Prompt: Marshal

Hey ya’ll, this weekend repeated challenge is hosted by Ms Sammi Cox. You can find the original post here.

The tragic events of September 11th confused the entire school. Ms Clark, an articulate extrovert, who never struggled with marshaling her thoughts, sat staring. Some students held others, while some eccalated quickly into a mess of panic and hyperventilating. Quickly, word spread as to who’s parents and family/friends were in the towers.. or responding to aid.

{This is a little bit longer than 39 words but I had a complete thought.}

Nova Namastè

Flower of the Day: Dahlia

Happy Sunday🌸🙏🏼 {or Monday/Tuesday} I hope you have/had a great start to your week. Remember that you’re worth effort, time, and love! All the challenge details are 🌸 🔙 here.

I’m putting together a jigsaw puzzle of Dahlias. I’m update this post when I’ve completed it.

Until next time,

Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness

Nova Namastè

Light in the World

Here’s a few stories that will bring a smile to your face ❤️ Is your heart not in need of a break from the horror and grief in the world?

Accentuate the Positive with #Positivity 💚🌸 Focusing on the good, Moshe Popack is determined to encourage healthier and happier future. He’s has started this movement with happy little Newsletter.

Join all of us, myself included, in making an intentional and deliberate change. It’s one simple choice. It’s one small act of kindness. It’s stepping out in Faith… Believing in the process.

This second highlight is one of an extraordinarily five year old boy. He decided to hike 2,100 in 209 days! With alittle bit of extra imagination, Josh and Cassie Sutton kept their Heroic Harvey on track!!

His dedication, discipline, and diligence is inspiring! You can read about this “Little Man” here😀

I’ll continue to bring you stories that have touched my heart. The good IS still in this world; we have to choose to look for it.

Hope you enjoyed this post. Until next time,

Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness

Nova Namastè

📖 The Hope

Some noise isn’t easy to dismiss. Some of it shouldn’t be dismissed. In Los Angeles, the noise of the streets is exceptionally disturbing. It’s heartbreaking; but, words of discussion doesn’t change it’s truth.

Skid Row brutally exposes the reality of struggle, unfortunate circumstances, and loss for countless human beings. Whatever series of events lead them to this place, they’re there; and, they need essentials to survive.

Plenty of adults lack the education of how their hurt impacts the future of their offspring. Where does the deadly cycle end? I suppose it’s when we all begin within ourselves to better understand. It might happen as we stop running from pain and discomfort. When we face what’s happened to us, the past starts to diminish.

Unfortunately, the past caught up those who live on Skid Row. I’m not saying childhood trauma is the only path that leads to homelessness. I’m saying a painful childhood greatly impacts adulthood, for all of us.. Thus resulting in some poor choices… even homelessness.

I understand decisions have consequences. I understand consequences require acknowledgement and accountability in order to be fruitful. I also know that we all are imperfect begins.

Two days ago, as I laid on my warm, queen size bed… I stumbled upon a new TV series… While surfing through my streaming device.. On my big flat screen.

The IMDBtv show is called The Tent Mender. The gentleman narrating the story is a heroin recovering addict. He chose to return to this place, where he got sober 15 years before. He needed the reminder. He was on the verge of relapsing.

Here’s the link to watch this incredible story!

You’ll meet remarkable individuals. You’ll see the kindness of humanity through loving acts of service. You’ll see the contribution of an answer to countless prayers: The Midnight Mission.

It’s incredibly humbling to watch. I hope you’ll take time to see for yourself.

Sometimes it’s easy to walk by because we know we can’t change someone’s whole life in a single afternoon. But what we fail to realize it that simple kindness can go a long way toward encouraging someone who is stuck in a desolate place.”

Mike Yankoski

Until next time,

Nova Namastè

My Mental Health Journey #20: The Wave is More Than Literal

Unfortunately, our states are being covered by dangerous amounts of water. It’s that time of year, when the waters remind us of their power.

Right now, I feel these monstrous and threatening waves are flooding souls, too. I feel this shift in the universal connection, a “San Andreas Fault”, if you will. The effects are shaking foundations. The roads are bowing .. and fear is suffocating all faith and hope from people.

People are sliding backwards, screaming to be rescued… from Covid.. from the Delta Variant.. the government, vaccine, masks, and mandatory regulations. It’s scary, my heart is aching… The disparity right now is the pre-condition of the Winter Blues.

Even here, times are changing. It’s more prevalent right now.. and it doesn’t feel like it’s towards anything good.

I know in my own life, there’s secrets that I’ve not told anyone. My own voice is not happy.. content.. and I hate it.

I have a flood of crazy crap jumbled in my head. I have things I was to blog about for here. I have a million thoughts about my kids, both going to school this year. I have thoughts about EVERYTHING!

That said, I may not be on much for a while. I have both my kids starting school and so much else to consider. I hope you’ll read what I’ve posted this far. I hope it’s or it’ll be a space of safety and security for you. I hope you all stay well and do what’s mentally best for you!

Until Next Time,

Nova Namastè

Wednesday Mental Health Check

Mindful is being emotionally, physically, and mentally in the moment. It’s allowing you to focus on what’s right now.

What do you smell?



Focus on where you’re sitting. In a chair at the office? On the porch, with coffee? Pay attention to your body and relax it comfortably.

Feel your feet flat on the ground/floor. What’s in your hands? What does this object, or the nearest object look like? Have you used it before? Is the texture rough or prickly?

How about the lighting where you are? Is it natural or solar powered? Is it electric powered? Does the light have bugs flying around it? Is the dawn coming up for the day? Is it the lamp shining through the window? Or the reflection rainbow from the stain glass decor hanging nearby?

This morning, try to sit in mindfulness for a minute of 10 minutes. Feel free to grab a pen and paper, to write down your experience. Try to shut the door to the last, close off the dark spiral hole you feel you’re in, and keep the future out of the moment.

I’d love it if you’d share how it went. This is totally optional.

Here’s a few videos that I hope nurtures a wonderful moment for you!

Music to play while you escape the sensation of the outer world and focus on the present .

Until next time,

Stay Safe, Speak Life, & Spread Kindness

Nova Namastè

Holding On But Letting Go

Dear Ones:

Do you know that feeling when you love something so much, it hurts? It’s only with life experience that we can possibly understand what it means.

We love a sport even when our feet hurt and our body aches. We love food until even though our cholesterol is really not good. We love night clubs though we’re hung over in the morning. We love so damn much… and nearly EVERYTHING on that list.. will hurt..

The secret to life is, though, is that we can hold on the memories of all that we love.. without holding on to the pain. We can keep with the good parts about that/those moment (s) without holding ourselves back in their suffering.

There will always be something new to love. There will always be pain because you love it so hard.. but, growth brings you through it. It challenges you. It screams at you when you want to give up. It reminds you why you started. It brings you to the place where you’re meant to do something differently.

So hold on to the memories. Smile when you think back to the wins in life. It’s ok to do that. Leave your suffering at the end of that every chapter. You’re moving on to the next ones; and, it needs all of you to write it in epic fashion!

Until next time,

Stay Safe, Speak Life, & Spread Kindness

Nova Namastè

225-234th Day of 365 Thanks Giving

  1. Stillness
  2. Fans (white noise)
  3. Drinks in glass bottles
  4. Pleasant conversations with strangers
  5. Water paint
  6. Glade Pumkin plug-ins
  7. Proper uses of then & than
  8. New memories with my kids
  9. Beta testing
  10. American heroes

Did you know, the ghost of Abraham Lincoln roams the hallways of the White House? Tis true!

Until next time,

Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness.

Nova Namastè

Feel Good Friday❤️

Every day, I intentionally seek out a way to leave a positive impact on someone’s life. I have the resources. I have the time.

Today, I want to spotlight this incredible human being!

💖💖Screenshot of his TikTok page💖💖

Bryan is an everyday guy, doing normal things. Fishing and working fills his days. Roughly 4-5 days ago, Brian received a powerful message from a boy, asking him to be his father.

The emotional tole has changed Bryan’s life.. because he went from “I can’t do this!” To smiling and stepping out in Faith.

This guy has touched my heart because his calling came to him; and rather than dodging it, he committed to it. He accepted this purpose and is now on the adventure of helping young in need.

In his personal time, he loves to fish! The link below is the Go Fund Me he’s set up to raise money for fishing adventures. Like a fishing trip and a few laughs could be all it takes for young people to feel renewed hope.

I’m posting this simply to bring awareness to the situation. Feel free to search Bryan on Tiktok or Instagram! You can also go through this link below and donate if you should feel led!

Extraordinary requires just a little bit “extra”. ❤️

Thanks for reading! Please reblog this if nothing else. I wholeheartedly believe in this cause and would greatly appreciate your contribution. Know that you’d be helping in changing lives for so many young youth!

Until Next Time,

Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness!

Nova Namastè (Brandy ❤️)

Share with Us 💕 #2 [Everyone Welcome 2 Participate]

1. Have you ever jumped in rain puddles?

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2. Do you or do you not use a fork to twist your spaghetti on a spoon before putting it in your mouth?

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3. If you saw a reflection of your younger self in a mirror, what would you tell him/her?

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4. How would you describe the sky without using weather related words?

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5. Are you an organ donor? Have you ever received an organ transplant?

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6. Have you ever taken the punishment for someone? What happened and what was the punishment?

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7. Tell us something you’ve learned about a culture different from your own.

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8. Would you please tell me 5 sounds that you hear right now?

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These are this week’s questions 🌺 Feel free to answer any that you’d like.

Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness

Nova Namastè


May these words regularly, genuinely, & gracefully resonate in your heart. Feel them.. always! Become so familiar with the these truths that your mind KNOWS it can rest.. you’re safe in the space of your own words.

Wishing you the best day possible 🙏🏼🌼

Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness 🌺

Nova Namastè

Word of the Day: Overdue

Dearest Darling,

I begin this letter wishing I had written sooner. There’s so much chaos around me; but, this correspondence is well overdue.

Last week, the captives escaped the torture camps. The guardsmen had fallen asleep. When officials arrived, the scene was of pools of blood and lives taken. It was the scariest thing, John.

In the days that followed, members of the Official Military bombarded and completely destroyed homes. Dozens upon dozens of families were scrutinized and threatened. I feared I’d be, mistakenly, shackled and drug away, like those other hopeless souls. It’s simply barbaric what is happening here, Love.

Oh, Dear, there’s a knock at the door. I shall wire again very soon…..

That’s it?” Henrietta gasped in great distress.

That’s all of it.” Fredrick quietly responded. He was sure this wasn’t the end of it for Etta.

She was his best friend, since year one in Primary School. The cubbies had been assigned in alphabetical order. He was Brinkly. She was Brodman. They sat beside one another in class. They played together outside.

Even in Secondary School, and High School the two of them were inseparable. Thick as thieves, their friendship defied all that could have destroyed it.

“Are there any other letters. Here, let me see.” She continued, snapping his attention back to the moment.

“ For real! No more? I can’t handle this. It appears we have work to do, then.” She finished while turning to face him.

He laughed. Not a normal, this isn’t really funny, but it is kind of laugh. No, he had the loud and boisterous affect to it.

“Girl, you’re crazy if you think I’m spending my vacation chasing down some love story as old as time” Fredrick snapped.

“Ok then, you’re walking home.” She snarled teasingly, of course.

“I have work to do” she added and headed downstairs.

Hope you enjoyed it!

Nova Namastè

Tuesday’s Writing Prompt Challenge

Host post can be found here 😀

This week, Devereaux Frazier and Beth Amanda asked us to write a it the image below. The goal is to use 15 words or less.

“The future awaits.” Jason’s heart crumbled, as he boarded the train. He definitely wasn’t ready.

Stay Safe, Speak Life, & Spread Kindness

Nova Namastè

#5Things- 5 Life Lessons I’ve Learned During the Lockdown

Salted Caramel has posted this week’s 5Things Challenge! Have a look at her original post, here!

During the lockdown, I’ve learned

1. In the classroom learning is essential for most kids.

2. I need to rediscover who I am, outside of a mom.

3. This world gets crazy when a mass of people are forced to stop moving.. thus, stuck in their thoughts.

4. I really loved how empty every place was when I went.

5. Most people do not place their health in their own hands.

I know these are a bit discouraging; but, these are things I’ve learned. They’re significant in my life.

What about for you?

Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness!

Nova Namastè 💖💖

Share with Us 💕 [Everyone Welcome 2 Participate]


Here’s a few questions to consider. Feel free to answer any that you’d like 🌺

1. Growing up, what did you want to do professionally when you got older?

2. Do you live in the city or state of which you were born?

3. What’s an item that you had as a girl, but isn’t being sold anymore?

4. Do your prefer pudding, yogurt, custard, or ice cream?

5. What’s one topic of interest you’d like to learn more about?

6. What is a favorite/unique family tradition in your house?

7. If you had one topic to teach to the entire world, what would it be and why?

8. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?

9. What’s one of your life saving cleaning hacks?

10. What’s one thing you wish you knew before having kids, but didn’t?

11. What is one less than life has taught you recently?

12. If you could retire and live anywhere in the world, where would that be?

I’m tagging a few people in hopes to encourage EVERYONE ELSE:)

Kristian, fauxctoft, Carol, Sandy, Debbie, Juliette, Belinda, Jenny, Olivia, Kelly, JoAnn, and Maggie.

I know I don’t know you-all personally, but I thought you might like to participate. I apologize in advance if I’ve offended by tagging you.

Remember stay safe, speak life, and spread kindness!

Nova Namastè

Mental Health in the LGBTQ population

This issue shouldn’t be overlooked! It’s just as alarming as the other injustices in this world.

This Friday, I challenge you to consider a point of you different from your own. See if you allow yourself to open your mind and grow!


Based on true story: Joe Bell

Mental Health in the LGBTQ population
— Read on

FOTD: Peonies & Lupines

August 13, 2021

Here’s the host post with all the details:D

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Stay Safe, Speak Life, and Spread Kindness

Nova Namastè

Word of the Day Challenge: Strictly

There’s too many options, variables, opportunities, and resources to believe all that exists is strictly based on that which, currently, makes sense.

—Nova Namastè

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Check out the Word of the Day Challenge here.

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