Author: Nova

“It is not the the bruises on the body that hurt. It is the wounds of the heart and the scars on the mind.” ― Aisha Mirza

Be Brave


Never fear silence and failure for it’s only at the bottom that we have only one direction left to go. It’s the path that requires most resilience and resistance, discipline and dedication. Facing silence deafens our self sabotage lies. Facing failure destroys our beliefs of incapabilities.

Nova Namastè
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Working on Us Week 8-9

This is a series that’s been created by Ms Beckie from Beckie’s Mental Mess.

Here’s where you can find the instructions to WEEK 8.

Here’s where you can find the instructions to WEEK 9.

I’ve been sick all week, and busy with life, that I haven’t been able to write on this lately. I thought I’d mesh these two together. (Beckie, hope that’s ok!).

Having lived with mild to severe anxiety and depression since 2001, I’ve had many victories of overcoming it. The greatest has most defiantly been overcoming suicidal tendencies, in 2005. The nightmare began four years prior, and I wasn’t ready for what I was about to endure. The hush hush of my family secrets tore my nights apart and stole much more than my peace of mind. My bedroom was the third, the top floor, of the house. It was a tall house, with a big backyard, hillside and lots of places to “hide”, if I wanted to pass in peace.

I spent most of my high school days proving myself worthy of my parents trust and respect, again (bullshit!). Most teenagers were sneaking out windows and illegally drinking with friends. Others my age were having sex and getting pregnant. That which my parents faced with me, was trivial in comparison. Furthermore, the issue at hand (as ridiculous as they are), couldn’t have been even more pathetic.

The last night I was in that house, my parents attempted to put their finger down one last time. To be honest, rightfully so, because, at that point in time, I straight up had no fucks left to give. I lied right to their faces. I did what I wanted. I rebelled like a professional. They tried to counteract that with more strict rules, and I was officially done.

I told my sister I was going to kill myself IF I didn’t leave. My intention was to take a steak knife ( I was on a rotating shift with dishes! I knew exactly which one i was going to use.) and use it. The harm wouldn’t have stopped with me, either. I knew my veins were screaming with adrenaline of destruction.

So I chose life…. and I gave that slogan a whole new meaning… It became my first and biggest victory.

Photo #1 for Week 8 is is a beautiful scene, with some greenery, in rain and sunlight.

This photo reminds me of the damper of anxiety and depression. It has moments of great heaviness, cold, gloom, downpour. It’s irritating when you’re caught in it, unexpectedly, without coverage. Soaked through and through, there’s no shelter, no place to think.. The anxiety is ruthless and relentless. The sunshine signifies the victory. It’s a break in the insanity of the endless grey and darkness. The sunshine is another resource that plants NEED, in order for nature’s complete balance. It’s not surprising that humans, also, need that break in the clouds. It’s our moments to regroup and breathe again!

WEEK 9 IS ALL ABOUT MY FIRST AND TRUEST LOVE: MUUSSIIICCCCCC!!!!!

Music is my therapy every single time. It’s quite honestly what saved my life in the days I spoke of, above. I didn’t have antidepressants to help sort out my toxic potion of feelings. I didn’t have parents that cared enough to even KNOW they existed. It wasn’t until some time after my departure that my sister handed my parents my diaries and told them to read them. It was then, when the scares were so fuckin deep that nothing of this world felt capable of healing them, that these people realized my severity and ugly demons.

These two particular songs speak volumes to me.

Though they’re somber and nostalgic, they speak about the hardships that are very real to me… and to our society. They speak about truth that it’s sometimes very dark and challenging. They speak of challenging moments that I’ve encountered and remind me of my resilience.

There’s ALWAYS a reason to fight. Keep searching for it my loves!!! IF you need one, I’ll be right here.

Kind Hearted Challenge – August Edition – Cyranny’s Cove

  Happy first day of August, Lovelies! As you might know, I have been waiting for a while to post this, and I am quite excited to finally launch this new, monthly Kind Hearted Challenge!   What is the Kind Hearted Challenge about? It is really simple… First of all, it is not a challenge…
— Read on cyranny.com/2019/08/01/kind-hearted-challenge-august-edition/

#NDRW – #59

Today’s word is descry.

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

Fandango’s Provocative Question

You can find all the details to his thought provoking post HERE🙂

His question: What are the 3 biggest challenges in your country right now? If you’re not Up-to-date on the news, you can respond on a personal level.

I don’t follow the news much; however, one doesn’t need to in order to see big issues in my country.

#1. Racism has been and forever will be the biggest challenge. Sadly, it’s the easiest one to fix. No motherfucker is better than the next. We all are immortal and we all hurt. One day we all are going to die. The ones who are remembered choose to live life with intention and a long term purpose.

#2. Gun violence, unfortunately, has crept it’s way up under the wing of issue 1. I don’t understand why the world feels shooting is going to solve problems. It’s everywhere though. Just last week, right outside a local public library, here in Cleveland, a man shot another man over some weed. The victim didn’t survive. He was 19.

#3. Poverty is the third biggest issue. Again, I’m starting to believe this is a global issue, but I don’t understand why. There’s more empty houses in the United States than there are homeless individuals??!!! It makes no sense. There’s been reports in the last few years where laws and restrictions have been placed about what can be done with outdated food or overstock.

It seems that alittle more love and kindness can solve all kinds of problems… Or maybe I’m just nieve.

Why nutritional psychiatry is the future of mental health treatment

A growing body of scientific evidence is making clear the connection between good nutrition and good mental health.
— Read on theconversation.com/why-nutritional-psychiatry-is-the-future-of-mental-health-treatment-92545

#NDRW – #58

Today’s word is abjure.

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

Gratitude Journal 07/30/19

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What am I grateful for today?

  1. Antiques
  2. Quietness
  3. Phones
  4. Handwritten Letters
  5. Stickers
  6. Car washers
  7. Scones
  8. Social Media
  9. French Dressing
  10. The Color Blue
  11. Computers
  12. Pavement
  13. Hugs
  14. Sun Glasses

“Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude.”― Ralph Waldo Emerson

NAMASTÈ 

#NDRW – #57

Today’s word is fractious.

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

#NDRW – #56

Today’s word is credulity .

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

A little Kindness Story

The media wouldn’t report this; and, I’m not here to put myself on a pedestal. I’m sharing because feel good stories are few & far in between.

While at the laundromat today, a mother was busy doing her mountain of wash. I could tell she was as tired as I felt. The temps were 90s and it was just hitting early evening.

The laundromat was clearing out some, as customers were finishing up. My Zivah found a little boy, a friend to play with. She does that with EVERY person under 10! No mater where we go. Anyway, this lad was an adorable African American kiddo with adorable curls and such a desire to play.

At the point in time that I was drying my laundry, this momma was still working on hers. Her son was this precious baby ( 11.3/4 months old) running around.

I’ve been in her shoes. She also had a younger baby at home. That laundromat was annoyingly hot… And everyone was tired..

For a few minutes, I played with him with his toy cars. Awhile later, his mom still working on folding, little man Wane was more hot, hungry, and tired. He wanted mommy. He was throwing the tantrum., you know THAT tantrum!!

For me, it was a no brainer. I sat right down, picked him up, and rocked him for a few mins. Maybe that would have freaked you out, but I felt safe to help ease him from crying. I did apologize to his mom for not asking first… But, more than anything, I could feel her sense of relief… He just wanted alittle attention. Alittle comfort, to feel safe and secure…

We’ve all had tough situations, especially single parents. If we can extend kindness in some way, any way… To help make life a bit easier for someone, then we should do so.

I am blessed to have been right where I was needed today.

#NDRW – #55

Today’s word is enervate.

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

Selfie Saturday

I’ve been through hell & high waters; but, I’m home… Once again… And my heart is so SO SO HAPPY 💖💖

If you feel like you just can’t let go…. Go against EVERY OPINION and DON’T! (Obviously within healthy boundaries)!

#NDRW – #54

Today’s word is tarn .

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

Gratitude Journal 07/26/19

Photo by Efdal YILDIZ on Pexels.com

What I’m grateful for today?

  • Friends
  • Fridays
  • Fuzzy socks
  • Furry baby animals
  • Firsts
  • Fresh cut grass
  • Finger foods
  • Finger painting
  • Free stuff
  • Finally Friday Feeling
  • Fireplaces
  • Fun Fonts

“Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude.”― Ralph Waldo Emerson

NAMASTÈ 

#NDRW – #53

Today’s word is spinney.

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

#NDRW – #52

Today’s word is bulwark.

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

Here’s another round

Going through another round of anxiety & depression. I’m exhausted. I’m sad. I’m not ok.

I doubt nearly everything said to me. Every ” uncontrollable and unintentional” misfortune feels like salt to the wound…

Every asshole move from anyone feels as if it’s intentionally meant to carve into my soul deeper.

Now That’s What I Call Music #53

This is, by far, one of my favorite collections of The NOW Music🎶 !!

Here’s the tracks=)

  1. Uptown Funk – Bruno Mars vs Mark Robson
  2. Lips Are Movin – Meghan Trainor
  3. Animals – Maroon 5
  4. Don’t – Ed Sheeran
  5. Habits (Stay High) – Tove Lo
  6. Love Me Harder – Ariana Grande, The Weeknd
  7. I’m Not The Only One – Sam Smith
  8. Steal My Girl – One Direction
  9. The Heart Wants What It Wants – Selena Gomez
  10. Trumpets – Jason Derulo
  11. Beg For It (explicit) – Iggy Azalea
  12. I Don’t Mind – Usher, Juicy J
  13. Boom Clap – Charli XCX
  14. Waves – Mr Probz
  15. Blame – Calvin Harris, John Newman
  16. A Sky Full Of Stars – Coldplay
  17. Shut Up and Dance – Walk the Moon
  18. Knock Me Out – Fancy Reagan
  19. Uncover – Zara Larsson
  20. Who Are You Loving Now? – Danny Mercer
  21. Hold the Line – Jack and Eliza

Nova’s Wise Words Wednesdays

“Bubbles:) There, helped you smile didn’t I?! Does it every time! “

Nova🙏🏼

“Just once, in your lifetime, do something unrepayable, for someone else. It’ll change his/her life and yours. ”

Nova 🙏🏼

Gratitude Journal 07/24/19

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What am I grateful for today??

Each & every one of you!!!

I honestly mean that from the bottom of my heart! Blogging has saved me time and time again.. But, without readers… I wouldn’t have had the encouragement, support, hugs, and unbelievable love that I so desperately needed. You guys are so patient and thoughtful, so inspiring and talented… And utterly amazing! I’m so honored to be apart of a such a unified and solid group of talented artists. I’m so grateful for every like, visit, comment, participation, and reader!! I’m so grateful for all of you!

#NDRW – #51

Today’s word is variable.

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

Drowning

Sometimes, out of no where, tears weld up… and fall like rain… a monsoon…. what causes it? To be honest, I have no freaking idea… it’s sadness, though…. truly soul shaking grief.

I am tired of feeling like this, though. It appears my antidepressants aren’t even helping. I don’t know…

Once again, I’m feeling so alone in this world. It feels like this, drowning in sorrow. Alone .

Photo credit: free photos of wp!

#YDWP: Creation

Written for Sheryl’s Your Daily Word Prompt, found HERE:D

Photo by Tim Mossholder on Pexels.com

Creation is the noun form of the verb, create. According to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary, creation means the following:

Definition of creation

1: the act of creating especiallythe act of bringing the world into ordered existence

2: the act of making, inventing, or producing: such as a: the act of investing with a new rank or office b: the first representation of a dramatic role

3: something that is created: such as a: WORLD b: creatures singly or in aggregate c: an original work of art d: a new usually striking article of clothing

{Resource: online search}


To me, creation is:

C Challenge oneself to become the best version of who he/she is.

R Represent his/her own set of beliefs/values/customs.

E Educate others with the knowledge he/she posses.

a Aim for high, yet tangible, goals.

T Treasure every small victory,

I Introduce yourself to the world, through your art.

O Offer the world a piece of beauty within yourself.

N Never give up.


Gratitude Journal 07/22/19

Photo by Luis Martinez on Pexels.com

What I’m grateful for today?

  • A break in the heatwave
  • Fresh mornings
  • Signs of victory
  • Alexa
  • Siri
  • Refrigerator
  • Google maps
  • Lighters
  • Pennies
  • Rainy Days
  • Brown eyes
  • Quietness

“Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude.”― Ralph Waldo Emerson

NAMASTÈ 

#NDRW – #50

Today’s word is luxurious.

Start writing or type / to choose a block

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè ☀🌌

Mica, Makeup Mineral, Mining {viewer discretion advised}

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I understand we all need one another to make this world operate… But, I’ll never support exploitation of children and ignoring ignorant child labor! Those two tasks are taking place, every day… where MICA, the glitter mineral of makeup, is being mined by children.

These videos may be the very reason you think twice about which products/brands you buy… I know they’ll never leave my mind. The children work in treacherous and dangerous conditions… Just for the minerals to be sold, and the labor to be masked in the process of selling to the consumers.

THANKFULLY, here in the United States, there’s a group taking steps to provide Natural Mica from GA.

Who’s Up?

If you’re up, please leave me a good morning in the comments 😀 Hope your weekend has started off fabulously!

Photo Credit: Pinterest

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè 🙏🏼🕉

#NDRW – #48

Today’s word is acquisition

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè 🙏🏼🕉

Nova’s Daily Random Word

Hahaha déjà vu!

I’m terrible with this habit of stepping away from things I’ve started, just to return some time later.

I can’t be sorry though. I get terribly bored with repetition; and, it’s starts to feel like an obligation.

©️2019Nova

Anyway, Nova’s Daily Random Word is simply a word that’s provided for prompt reasons.

You can research it.

You can ignore it.

You can hand draw it and hang it in your dormitory, if you want.

You can write a letter about it,

Haiku it,

Find an image to match it…

Whatever you feel drawn to do…

Please please just Pingback to my post here.

Most importantly, have fun!!

Gratitude Journal

Photo by John Cahil Rom on Pexels.com

What I’m grateful for today?

07/19/19

  • reflection 
  • transparency
  • apologizes
  • sparkles
  • blankets
  • the color pink
  • online shopping
  • the glow of gold objects
  • handicapped parking spots
  • Drake’s KiKi 
  • Subway
  • lip gloss
  • wine glasses
  • the Children who mine our makeup (another post in the near future)
  • Beads
  • Transition prescription glasses 

“Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude.”― Ralph Waldo Emerson

NAMASTÈ 

Traveling Blog Journal (recont..)

Somewhere along the way, my beloved idea was dropped in a deep puddle of mud, and lost. This Journal link is something of which I hold dear, and deeply cherish. For these reasons, I’m restarting the travels…

I will tag three individuals.

You three, PLEASE let me know if you DO NOT wish to participate. Steps:

  1. Introduce yourself
  2. Tell us a little about yourself and the country/state you live in.
  3. Tag 🏷 one person to send the journal to.
  4. Ask that individual, as well as you on your post, create a ping back to my original Traveling Blog Journal post.

Most of all, 

Have Fun! 💖💚🌼

💭Here, you will be featured in the list of destinations. You can pick & choose where you’d like to “visit”💭

The Potential Stops:

  1. Sadie
  2. From a Spark to a Flame
  3. Someone Else’s Recovery

Hot & Humid = Splash Play

We are never so defensless against suffering as when we love.

Sigmund Freud

Keep Cool Everyone!

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself 

#SpeakTruth into your mind 

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world 

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left. 

Namastè 🙏🏼🕉