We focus so much on our pain…. particularly, pain that others have caused us. We grow bitter and jaded. We build walls, shut people out, sulk in our misery. We want someone to blame, for destroying a valuable piece of ourselves. We get angry that someone mistreated us, took advantage of our good nature, and disrespected our beliefs and values. We torture ourselves with what ifs, should haves, and constant replay. We lose sleep. We quit eating. We drink until our livers are thrown up. Some people destroy everything that represents that time… Others punish the person of blame.
We keep the pain alive, through fear… And distance… Self harm, isolation, darkened rooms. The pain is an endless cycle of insanity…
Pain is an ugly thing. Underneath it… Is love that’s been hurt. I don’t care who says what, we ALL know how to love… And pain is what makes us human.
It’s truth to life… Pain caused by other people…
What about pain we cause ourselves?
Sayyy wwhhhaaaa????? 😱😱😱😱
Yes! What about the pain we cause to ourselves.
Pain in the tolerance? The intimidating silence? The submission due to fear. Pain in the denial. Pain in the illusion of what we want rather than what is. We create our own pain in replays and reminding, reminiscing, and rewinding. We create our pain in the excuses for their behavior, and the lack of worth we feel for ourselves.
It’s not a single person’s responsibility, nor should it be anyone else’s top priority to heal us… It’s that of the individual in the glass. It’s OUR responsibility to learn. It’s our power to grow and change. It’s our worth that’s being TLC… It’s our hearts that need the things we are expecting from others??? It’s our purpose to live the best versions of ourselves.
Stop being angry. Stop expecting the empty voids in your life to be filled with stuff and other people. Stop expecting people to fill those voids, when you are the only one who can mend the wounds. You deserve it.. You are so special… So wonderful. You deserve the world, and a lifetime of abundant blessings.
But, until you heal yourself… You will be the toxicity that you try to repel of others.