And yet, as if my burden isn’t heavy enough, the ONLY person who can update me says,
” I know him better than you ever will.”
Sure there’s some truth in that, but was it necessary to say? Did it need to be said? Was it said to help me feel some comfort?…
No.. Not much about this entire situation is bareable. I’m sure some of you want to tell me to brush it off or don’t listen to him. I’m sure you want to say his opinion doesn’t matter right now or try and forget about it. As a highly sensitive INFJ, that’s like telling someone who’s without brain activity to breathe on his/her own. Highly Sensitive and INFJs operate based on emotions and the senses. HSP is like living with every sense operating at its max capability, all at once! Emotions run DEEP… Every single one.
That’s just the facts of my situation. It’s not the dynamics of my relationship with his father.
No change…. Every moment feels like an eternity. I’m so tired.
My lungs still struggle to fill sufficiently.
The upside about today, the homeschool teacher brought me some coffee and my girls made these really cute Easter wreaths 🙂 She ( the teacher) and I both talked about our loved ones we lost to suicide. Right now, for us, it seems like the reminders are everywhere, like right in our faces! That’s another situation that’s so incredibly difficult, and it leaves so many with to many questions.