” I choose to slow down enough to connect with the gift I’m given in this moment. ”
When I go through something tough, I’m always looking for the lesson. There’s so much change needed to become the best version of me, that I need to use every given opportunity. Today, this is that lesson.
I think back and frustratingly grieve my losses. I sit here and fight with whomever about everything that isn’t RIGHT NOW.
IF I’m never given another moment, I’d want you all to believe my words that I’m grateful for you. I’d give you a big hug and tell you life will change again, things can be better.
Right now, I’m exhausted from the fighting. My heart and soul goes into him… But, so few are worth it. Love isn’t pretty. Right now, my dishes need done. My girls rooms need picked up. I could use a shower…
But right now, I’m feeling thankful that he chose to continue fighting me. He wasn’t willing to block my number and dismiss me.
It’s 7:15… My favorite hour:) I’m sitting in my favorite chair, listening to the tick tock of two clocks, nearby. I’m listening to my girls laughing and playing in the other room.
Right now is a gift. I’m thankful.
The other lesson I learned is to not speak from a place of insecurity. I know I matter to him. I know that love is something special and takes time to develop.
I know what it feels like when we spend time together ; and nothing else is in our world at the moment.
Insecurity robs us of a peace of mind. It doesn’t have too, if we recognize it’s ugly stench.
I’m a work in progress.