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The Awesome Impact Award 2018

I am humbly honored to accept this Awesome Impact Award from the sweetest Ana💕! I wasn’t aware of such an award, and I never dreamed, after just a few months, I’d be nominated. Ana, I’m incredibly grateful. Please know it’s just as much of a blessing as it is to simply hear someone enjoys my work. My goal isn’t specific to a certain set of statistics or an exact number of posts, but rather this place is of substance, quality, and good things.

Rad Gamer gave birth to this award, so that we may share how any particular situation influenced our lives in a positive way. What I LOVE about this award is that, from my perspective, everyone is qualified. How So? At any moment, something of which we have no control can be negative or positive. Many life experiences carry a capability of both. It’s a choice, our individual choice, as to how the circumstances will impact us. For me, the decision has been to make the most of it, learn and grow, be thankful for change, and ask God for His help while keeping faith.

🌺The Rules:

  1. Tag the person who nominated you.
  2. Take “The Awesome Impact Award” Picture and add that in your post.
  3. Talk about an incident that impacted your life in a really positive way.
  4. Nominate 10 other awesome bloggers for this award.

Picking one incident, in particular, that’s positively influenced my life is challenging. To say the least, I’ve had a lifetime of situations that breaded my insecurities and flaws.

When I was three, my twin & I stayed in six foster care homes in six months. The constant change of faces is what I knew life to be. My three other siblings were with another family, and even that was a poor living situation.

You’d think, one man and woman, willing to open their hearts and home to adopt five would result in the happiest ever after. This story unraveled an ugly and bitter woman, who wanted “her own” children, despite its five.

The chaos continued in 1990, when she gave birth to a set of twin boys. In no way am I saying I wish she hadn’t. Fact is, those two came from her womb, they were treated and raised differently… In 1993, our family of 9 became a family of 10. Early on, at a very young age, the oldest of us could sense the disadvantages we had compared to the others.

In 2005, when I was tired of trying, doing nearly everything these two individuals wanted, while unfortunately lacking so many essential life skills, I decided to physically walk to work, rather than commit suicide.

I decided the night before that I could no longer live under such strict, unhealthy, and uncontrollable conditions. If I could survive that, knowing so very little about the real world, clueless as to who I really was or wanted to be, and incapable of basic survival skills, I could handle anything life threw at me.

Life has since, placed me homeless twice, one of which I was pregnant, driving unfamiliar North Carolina roads at night, to someone I hadn’t ever met, while my boyfriend was arrested for driving without a license. Him committing suicide, while I was 100000% dependent on him for everything, including raising our 18th old daughter, moving to Cleveland in the middle of Winter, to restart and reestablish a life for us, attending to my medical condition that fear used to hold me hostage from driving, coping with verbally abusive people, and a second (accidental pregnancy) on my own.

I’m an independent woman. I’m a mother of two sweet happy girls. I have my own apartment, with most bills caught up. I’m not receiving assistance besides medical. I pull through trials, knowing everything will work out if I keep faith and hope. I have an incredible boyfriend, strong resilience, tons of self discovered identification, and no fear to drive highways.

Sometimes, I fear life is going to stare me in the face and say, ” I got you, you failure. You’re now my bitch.”, and then I’ll recieve a nomination such as this and a message of light I had been to someone…. And I’ll realize I’m doing pretty ok.

My 10 Nominations :

  1. Renard Moreau
  2. The Lonely Author
  3. Ally’s Notebook
  4. DM: Pointless Overthinking
  5. CrucialNotes
  6. The Good The Human
  7. Domingo’s Day
  8. Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha
  9. Matt W Watson- Future Failed Writer
  10. Linda’s Bible Study

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